[Jac]

Thank you Linda, and all of my friends on this board...I appreciate you all so much.
We lost the battle with our baby and it is, indeed, the hardest thing I have had to do...set her free. She just struggled too much, had so many things to fight and she was so small...strong, but small.
We believe that she had a problem with the anesthesia...and it resulted in a variety of problems. I was trying to get her to a point where we could bring her back home to see if she could react to her siblings...but got a call last night that she was having "croupy" breathing problems, fever and rectal bleeding...I couldn't put her through any more.
Linda is right, the vets (6 different ones, 3 of them neurologists) said that her age was not a factor...still, I don't know how I can schedule these operations in the future.
She took part of my heart with her when she left me this morning.

 

[Jac]

You are all so wonderful...such a sense of family here...thank you!

Your love, support and understanding helps me to get through this and it is so true that the 9 gorgeous siblings can kiss away almost all of the pain...almost.

Thank you all.

 

[Jac]

Thank you...so much.

I just received a call from the hospital where Angel stayed...the neurologist was checking on me...said he was worried (cuz I'm a boob, I think...) anyway, he said that it was NOT her liver that caused this, they checked her liver (autopsy) and it was normal. I was so worried that her liver may have had a genetic problem and I am very relieved that it was not the cause. Very relieved.

I just wanted to share that info...I think we all wonder about the general health of our dogs and when something like this happens to a breeder, it is even more important to know...thank goodness for this news.

Tina...I love the comment about the bridge and my baby helping out until I get there...very sweet and comforting comment.

Thank you all so much for your kindness.

 

[Jac]

Thanks, Sarah...I appreciate your kind words.

Maureen...I didn't ask enough questions, I'm afraid. I should have asked and asked and asked... BEFORE the operation...but I trusted my vet...I have learned a huge lesson.

I think that vets, like other medical professionals, don't want to "condemn" one of their own by saying that they did something wrong...they just list possibilities...and one possibility was liver malfunction, because her liver test showed damage...but after she passed away, the neurologist called me. I was so worried about my breeding program and possible liver disorders that he did an autopsy (without charge) and called to say that her liver was normal...so he said, "We CAN'T SAY what caused this..." I personally believe that my vet over dosed the anesethics...but I have no proof...only circumstances that point to it.

I am relieved that she tested normal, genetically, however. That is a big load off of my mind.

 

[Jac]

Hi everyone...our dogs bring us together in some amazing ways...and I know that you have learned the lessons that I have learned...lessons that can only come from the deep, honest love that a human can feel for a dog and that a dog returns to its human...

We have been so blessed. Our dogs are blessed. I am grateful everyday that I have friends on this forum. Friends who understand how to love...my husband has said that he now realizes that the people he likes the best...all share a love for dogs. There is something very special in that kind of bond.

Loving our dogs brings us intimately in touch with our own humanity...you guys are all so very special.